tests

we all test ourselves, sometimes we don't know it some days we can't avoid it....how do you test yourself? is it getting up every day to go to that job that's killing you?you know the one, sucking in carcinogens and all you can do is hold your breath and pray. bad i know, but hey you got two cars and a mortgage and one income... or do you get up and talk to people that you fear will laugh at you? Maybe you face a loved one and it gives you strength or maybe you feel deep down that its just your duty... whatever some people feel that even this isn't enough, they go deeper to a primal animal place where all that is left is a fight or flight instinct... they choose to test themselves in the arena of combat...be it boxing, muay thai or brazillian jiu jitsu they get up they train and they fight. that is definately an extreme test, and definitely not for everyone. it is funny what happens as you fight, i remember my first fight the shock of the first hit to the head was bad, i remember thinking damn that hurt, this is for real... funny then i just went into a surrvival mode and hit back maybe 3 years earlier i might have looked for a way out, this time i stayed and i fought. after the affair, i noticed that everyone wants to be a piece of a fighter may not want to fight but to touch one and say i knew him or her or whatever that seems to be a big thing... wonder what its like for other pro athelete? but for those that don't fight, i must say that it is onlya test and we all test ourselves, we just don't always know it...